bad spot again.
been obsessed over everything going on, stomach hurts, don't want to try to stop, but so sick of keeping it all going.
sometimes it all just sucks.
seems like i fight with everyone and fall on my face. as if i deserve to even, it sure feels like i do.
not trying to give up, but it's just so hard to be happpy happy, bullcrap happy.
i try so hard to be positive and good and helpful, but i'm so very destructive... i mess so much up. even when i'm trying to do good.
sorry, just needed to vent, such a bad weekend.
longing to change